Living Memoirs • Volume 2

The Rooftop

Living Memoirs Volume 2 // An eclectic collection of personal thoughts, transmissions, words spoken, and notes taken between Sept 20-27-2020 // I've been saying that I'm not afraid of the deep end for years. And while that's true, the difference now is that there's nothing left in me, that I'm not willing to spend. False starts are still starts. Permission is an activator. It provides us with a prompt to our personal power, and leads us into action. "You're gonna have a breakthrough soon, I can feel it." "How do you know?" "Because my heart is broken wide open, and one of it's magical powers is in sensing other types of breaks, as naturally as it senses love." Osho Spread: What should I embrace more of: Rest What type of action should I be taking: Go With The Flow What do I need to leave behind to move forward? Exhaustion I remind myself often, and say it out loud regularly. "I am the big thing." Not everything that arrives on your doorstep is for you to open yourself up to, and receive as an opportunity. Sometimes the action of closing the door, and returning to sender, is the opportunity in itself. Maybe the reason that I'm so fixated on rushing to get a grip on the next phase, is because the slow process of grieving the one person I can no longer hold onto, is far too excruciating. "Do you think it's strange that I have I have 3 distinct voices throughout various mediums? Why do you think that is? " Me asking Emily, referring to the way I show up on video, record spoken audio, and pour my guts out through writing. "Not strange at all. You're accessing different parts of you. And you have a lot of people that need to hear from you, so it's important they can find different pieces of them, through various pieces of you." I rarely say things outright, but I'm very direct. - A newly discovered distinction about myself Just because it feels impossible, doesn't mean that it is. www.christafontaine.com --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/christa-fontaine/message